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What About the Bad Times – Ag in the Bible

February 8, 2015

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAIt’s been a difficult and long week. OK two weeks. Three. Anyone for a month?

Last week I wanted to close the world out. Depression sucks on a good day. On a bad one it’s beyond just ‘get over it’. Add to that normal life things and attempting to raise a healthy teen…oh and a few hundred other things…it’s easy to hit overload.It’s where some reach for a drink. Or others spiral to suicide. It’s where hopeless is so easy to latch on to and faith becomes a clouded memory of what used to be, could be or is out of reach.

So I’ve been reading a pretty cool book called “Make It Happen” and the author makes some great points. Personal experience.

Making it happen means ending the extremes.

We all know extremes, and those in agriculture maybe know it with an edge.

Or how about fears. Doubts. Those things that everyone has, to varying degrees, but few admit.

You know that feeling you get when a good friend asks, “how are you?” You instantly tense up, not wanting to reveal the stuff that is weighing you down. You think I can’t tell her. It’s too much. I won’t be able to stop if I star. I don’t want to burden her. She’ll think I’m crazy. I can’t!

I’m fine,” you quip.

Your friend asks again, “No really…how are you?”

What if no one asks? What if it’s a matter of dealing with right now. Get this and this done. Then that. Then the other.

“Life moves fast. So fast sometimes that we don’t slow down enough to take stock of how we are doing. We think, It doesn’t matter how I feel right now. There are mouths to feed and bills to pay! I’ll feel things some other day. Left with what seems like no choice but to press on, we do.

Guilty as charged. Feeling? How am I? Well, not that the vast majority of the world cares, because I alone am pretty insignificant. But it’s easy to talk cheery things. It’s easy to share bunny photos and watch cat videos and ignore the reality of life; or see just that reality.

I’m tired of asking – whether for help voting for something I’m trying to do, help with bills that I don’t know when I’ll be able to repay, help with advance purchase so that if the job applied for doesn’t happen there’s still some kind of income in the future. In the great escalator of life getting a few things handled to find more coming is a fact. Taking steps and steps and it seems the basement should be filled but it’s a rotating belt that never ends or gets full.

Then have one promise fall through. And another. And be facing on Sunday night the reality of needing $350 in a few too short days on top of what already is there and it should be so easy – but isn’t. Because when needed the most, most look the other way. Community is great when someone else needs voted on, or a fundraiser or hand. It outright, flat out 100% sucks to be the one asking rather than giving. Asking without a response spells loser. “We don’t want you here” – whether said or not, and most aren’t cold enough to say it so just say nothing.

So far utilities are paid, we have food and feed – but next week? Next month? Millions of Americans face these questions. Issues. Most know someone facing it, whether said or not. Perhaps saddest is the after it’s too late to help verbal regrets of “If he/she had asked” or “If I’d known…” and so much is being busy in our own lives to not hear. Often it makes no sense. The overwhelm can be intense without the issue of depression.

Does it matter? Not in the big scheme of things. If I disappeared from the planet tomorrow, apart from Connor, most of the world would go on without any disruption or detour to the daily life. Some might be a little quieter without messages – or requests – or posts to try to make a difference for others. None of us will be here forever, and at that point the credit status, power bills, debts and petty feelings don’t mean a thing.

Then it comes to what one believes.

If God is for us, who can be against us?” Romans 8:31

Here on Earth, such things matter. Here at this point it feels overwhelming. It shouldn’t – most of us wouldn’t miss $25. $50. It’s easy to help others without the expectation of repayment…a gift because it’s possible to do so. It’s harder to wear the Loser logo. Or feel like it’s a brand on the forehead. No one else has such issues. Right?

Depression and suicide takes 22 veterans per day. Farmers. Students. People you know. People you never met. Does it matter?

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go. (Joshua 1:9, NIV)

And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever; (John 14:16, KJV)

(Jesus said) “And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” (Matthew 28:20, NIV)

For we live by faith, not by sight. (2 Corinthians, 5:7, NIV)


2 Comments leave one →
  1. February 9, 2015 5:10 PM

    It will get better. One day, it will. Never, ever, lose sight of that, even though it’s hard to see the sun shining when you’re looking at the wall of a pit.

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